"When you find out,
all of the air is sucked out of you,
like a vacuum with no remorse.
Everything you thought you knew becomes a question with no answer
and everything you took for granted
slips from your grasp.
Suddenly, you’re not good enough,
he wanted somebody else.
He lied, and you believed him.
He left, and you blamed yourself."
"I shiver, thinking how easy it is to be totally wrong about people, to see one tiny part of them and confuse it for the whole."
"Too many books?" I believe the phrase you’re looking for is "not enough bookshelves".
Never apologize for your fluency in english.
If you have a different mother tongue, you are under no obligation to know english at all, let alone fluent english.
Never let anyone make you feel bad for not speaking proper english.
Be proud of your mother tongue.
Why should we learn their language when they mock and refuse to learn our own.